Where I Rest - Sleep Now My Darling

 Cannot undo what is behind me
Cannot slow the turning wheel
the patterns seen from above are always easy to guess
false hope in abundance, resting in the eye of the storm
where can I hold some peace, if not in my home or soul
I take refuge in the only place I know
and there I am alone

It all rushes by, as I sit and watch
Last time I was in, I became so lost
I could give no solace
For me it trails somewhere else
And where I rest is in the ice

We bring each other, why we are unsure
We want to lay blame, try to explain
All the reasons, we knew so well
That vanished with the passing day
And brings on the night, crushing on us
With everything we cannot say

It all rushes by, as I sit and watch
Last time I was in, I became so lost
I could give no solace
For me it trails somewhere else
And where I rest is in the ice

sleep now my darling
lying beside me tonight
you always wanted
me to set you free
now you are and never looked so lovely
no more pain for my love, no more
no more waiting for it all to be done
sleep now my angel
lying beside me tonight

Lights Out

Will I feel the pain
when my body goes
will I feel at peace
no one seems to know
I have to say either way
it just doesn't matter
I could speculate and be afraid
in the end
and maybe when the lights go out
It'll be forever
no waking up
from a dream
no more lingering
perhaps I'll close my eyes
and sleep forever
Thought I had more time
it snuck up on me
one final thought
will I be relieved
I'm scared and I'm hanging on
will I be free
when I'm finally gone
what will I become
I have to say either way
it just doesn't matter
I could speculate and be afraid
in the end
and maybe when the lights go out
It'll be forever
no waking up
from a dream
no more lingering
perhaps I'll close my eyes
and sleep forever

Recluse

 I feel crazy living ‘round here
Maybe I’d be sane if I disappear
Desperate to let go as I grasp all I know
Fall into the well of endless uncertainty
I’m keeping out of site
I’m turning out the light
Don’t care what’s going on
Don’t care if I belong
After all the times I turned away
Can’t bring myself to come out and play
Every day is blurring into another
Why can’t I move from this spot
This is not how I imagined
My life would be
A recluse from society
No matter how I regret it
Nothing ever changes me
I’m keeping out of site
I’m turning out the light
Don’t care what’s going on
Don’t care if I belong

I Heard Between

 I open my eyes
And stumble from my sleep
To see what’s in front of me
How do I fight the unseen

I heard between the walls
Opinions don’t exist at all
And from these heights
We all must fall
In a time we can’t agree
How can we be free
If the best in man
Is a casualty

We gave our power away
A long time ago
It hard to see what’s real
Behind the shadow
Can we hope for
Not to die in another war
That we have fought before

I open my eyes
And stumble from my sleep
To see what’s in front of me
How do I fight the unseen

Never Be the Same Again

 Are you my friend
am I someone you would forget
even if you regret
it will never be the same again
I still remember
something you need to know
even if you blame me
it was you who let go
of all that we were
our perfect moment
never happened at all
and though you
look at me now
for the answers
the truth remains
you have always known
it will never be the same again
I have nothing to give
you have taken it all
though I forgive you
it is the last time I fall
if I break again
I will not mend
are you my friend
or someone to forget
for in the end
it will never be the same again

Nightmare Man